I can't express how happy I am for you that you are finally ready to try to get free of the horrible and deathly garbage pit of smoking. How strong a hold it had on my mind and spirit is shown in the fact that no matter how many family members died around me from smoking - my dad, three brothers and a sister, along with several friends - I kept saying that I enjoyed smoking.
I later found that my fears were groundless and that it was only lies that sprung from that desperate addiction that defeated my quit attempts. The truth is, once you take the time and effort to educate yourself about addiction and quitting strategies, and connect yourself with a community like QuitNet and nicotine anonymous groups, quitting is totally doable and so much easier than you ever thought.
I considered myself the worst of the worst in terms of being sunk into the quicksand of addiction, and I was over the worst quitting difficulties in a day or two. I found that I could turn away from smoking thoughts when intense craves hit. I clung to that for dear life, and found that after just a few hours of practice, the craves slowed down. I also practiced gratitude to my higher power and kept dwelling on the life changing benefits of quitting.
No matter what you are doing now, the big lie is that there will be a better and easier time to quit.
The truth is, the perfect time to quit is today.
You for sure can do this.